Every word feels like a shooting starOriginal post: OCTOBER 09, 2010 - 10:54PM (old blog) Play this song while reading : Love is a terrifying thing because when you love, you have to gear up and get ready for a roller coaster ride of emotions. Romantic love, that is, one of the complex things on Earth. Philosophers, poets and musicians tried defining and explaining what love is. There is no perfect definition of love because love is beyond words. It is something unexplainable like the butterflies on your stomach when you think of that certain someone when you hear the word love. It’s the feeling of warmth when someone holds you hand, the feeling of security when someone hugs you tight and the inevitable feeling of LOVE when you heard the words “I love you” coming from that very same person who makes you feel giddy inside. Out of the complexity and complications of love, it is the SIMPLE reason why you find yourself smiling and dreaming. Call me hopeless romantic, I am. I always dreamt of my own “once upon a time” and “happy ever after”, even my own prince charming on a white horse. But as I grow older, I learned that it isn’t about that once upon a time nor the happy ever after, it is about what happens in between. The pain, suffering, struggle and the love that goes beyond and around the fairy tale love story. Love betrayed me, love caused me pain, love made me felt like I’m dying and once and love failed me – with all my bitterness towards love, I could not imagine myself hating falling in love because I admit, I’m in love with the idea of love – all the romance, the thrill and then of course the pain that makes love stronger. I often… Okay, I admit that I always daydream about different romantic dates, proposals and weddings. I always think of that guy who’ll read me my favorite line from the book, who'll write me love letters and sweet notes, take me to the park to have a picnic date or to bring my books when he fetched me from my school – maybe this is also the ultimate reason why until now, I’m single. Bitter truth, but yes, I am still single by the moment. --- So recently, I've been "digging" my old posts from a previous non-existing blog and this is one of my memorable posts. It must have been not too obvious that I'm certain (hopeless) romantic girl in every way possible, this is just one of the concrete evidence of it. Ever since I started writing, there's one thing similar -- I write when my emotions are extreme or all over the place. I must have written the most cringe worthy cheesiest to the angriest posts ever. But right now, it gives me a feeling of nostalgia, I must have been so affected by the song when I wrote this - I may not feel the same feeling anymore but the thought that I once felt it, is worth remembering. xoxo, M
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